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my declaration of independence

I don't want to sound arrogant or cocky in any sort of way but I've had at least a handful of guys hitting on me or "chasing after me" in one instance or another lately. To be honest, it's kind of annoying and I don't want any of it. Just let me be, please? I need to wear that a sign that says BACK OFF (kind of like those Yosemite Sam mudflaps for trucks). Yes, I have a friendly "approachable" personality but that doesn't necessarily mean I want to be approached. Both my Facebook and MySpace accounts say I'm "looking for friendship." I'm not sure if I even want that because I have a hard enough time keeping up with my friends sometimes. I really just want to focus on my education, my career, my awesome friends, and my wonderful family. So don't pressure me on "settling down" (it's not like I party a ton anyways) or on dating someone. Yes, there's someone I'm crushing on somewhat and I don't get to see him a lot but when I see him or hear from him - it totally makes me smile. So there.



Single by Natasha Bedingfield
Ah yeah that's right
All you single people out there
This is for you

I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me
(Cos I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me
(No no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby
(Is that so hard to understand?)
No I don't need another half to make me whole

Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't

[Chorus:]
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

I'm single
(Right now)
That's how I wanna be
I'm single
(Right now)
That's how I wanna be

Ah yeah Uh Huh that's right

Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good
(I like who I am)
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cos I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cos you say I should
(Can't romance on demand)
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood

[Chorus]

Everything in it's right time everything in it's right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But 'til then I like it this way it's my way
Eh I like it this way

Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
'Til then I'm single

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant



Also, to be perfectly honest - relationships scare the hell out of me. The whole male species pretty much terrifies me. I tend to become anxious and nervous when approached and when I'm being hit on, I usually want to run far, far, away. I'm very flighty and finicky. I've only felt truly comfortable with only a few guys in my life and even then things didn't really work out because of my own issues and self-doubts. But for now, whatever happens will happen. Don't push me. I'll decide if I want to chase you back and chances are I probably won't.

And this has been my philosophy of sorts as of lately: Let go and let God. It just makes sense to me.